Someone asked you if you are ready to settle down, it felt like someone slapped me which made my face spin 360° when I heard from your very own lips the word soon…
do you want to hear a naked truth?
it crushed me. it hurts me.
They say, when something is for you, you don’t have to force it. That not everything that we want will be given to us.
Well, this one might be the most difficult to quash. Please wake me up from this nightmare.
Soon?
Soon, he’ll pursue someone
Soon, he’ll settle down
Soon, he’ll marry her
Soon, he’ll be a husband
Soon, he’ll build his family
Soon, he’ll be a father
Soon, I won’t be able to look at you the same way I used to look at you because it’s against my principles to desire someone who’s already taken by someone else. You know I am not like that.
Do you want a naked truth again? Right now, I don’t want to let go of you yet. I want to maximize the time I have left to love you until you find her at least.
I need mountain courage to do that;
to let go of the man of my dreams
to let go of someone who’s not like any other, indeed, a one of a kind.
to let go of the man I am praying for.
She will have you in ways I couldn’t.
—Red.
Writings of Red 